Losing oneself to addiction may be one of the most terrible things that can happen to a person. It destroys the dreams one has for life and how it could unfold in the future. It destroys the hopes one has for a family, for a successful business or profession, and for health and happiness.
Addiction is the thief which steals it all away, and leaves a person facing only misery and despair. But human beings are resilient, and there is always hope that somehow and in some way, a life worth living can be recovered. This is such a story.
Losing Himself
This is Brian’s story of losing himself to drugs and alcohol, and how he found himself again through the Narconon drug rehabilitation program at Narconon Arrowhead in Oklahoma. In sharing his experience, it is hoped that his words will touch others, and help start them on the journey of getting themselves back.
Brian says that before he got into the Narconon program, “my life was filled with despair, anger, depression, rage.”
His family, his wife—the respect and adoration he used to have in their eyes–was lost. The trust factor was totally gone, and his life was a complete shambles. “I was dying”, he says.
When he first got to Narconon, he says he felt relieved. He met some people, and they were very passionate about what they did–they cared. “They cared about getting me better”, he says.
Brian shares that even when he didn’t care about himself—“they cared about me.” That caring made a great impression upon him, and it helped ease him into the Narconon program.
He says he felt a lot of love, and “they were there every step of the way with me”, which he really appreciated.
Finding Himself
Brian says the part of the program that helped him the most was the Drug-Free Withdrawal phase. After three or four days of being there, he says he “submitted myself and accepted myself”; and the love that was around him, “in order to better me.”
It was there that he got the strength which he says carried him over into the rest of the Narconon program.
Brian shares that once he quit fighting himself, “and decided to live for a better me” and to be “a better me for my family”, was when he saw the major change in himself.
He used the strength from that decisions throughout the remainder of the program; and it really sustained him, he says. “That’s where I saw the change. And it just got better from then on.”
Brian
Brian wants the reader to know that when he finished the Narconon program, he felt awesome and felt on top of the world. He says there is nothing he can’t accomplish right now.
He says that now he has completed the program, it “is such an inspiring walk that I’ve had, it’s going to carry over into my years of sobriety. “
Brian adds that there has been so much change in him for the better. “I love myself now. I can look at myself with respect. I can look at the reflection in the mirror, and smile.”
“I can pat myself on the back. I can give now. I used to take, take, take—I can give now.”
Brian shares that those abilities which he has gained make him feel good. And it makes him feel good to help-out those who are struggling; saying “Now I get to give back.
He says “there used to be all these layers—drugs, alcohol, and “all this other junk”, now ripped away.
“And now the true me is here. And thanks to this program—it’s there.”
If you or someone you love has lost themselves to addiction and would like help, please contact Narconon Arrowhead at www.narcononarrowhead.org or call toll-free 1-800-468-6933.