I’ve Come a Very Long Way

This is one of the proudest moments in recent memory for me, as it’s one of the biggest accomplishments I’ve had in the last decade.

To confront one’s self of past, present, and future events, whether they have been or will be imposed upon me or self-inflicted transgressions was certainly one of the most mentally and emotionally challenging situations I’ve had to face.

But that wasn’t even the hardest part. The hardest part was forgiving myself. I had a difficult time convincing myself I deserved to be forgiven. Then it came to me: if my family loves me enough to forgive me, and my friends care enough to forgive me, then I too should forgive the things I’ve done. For it is not what I’ve done that defines me as a person, but what I do from here on out.

I’ve learned some valuable lessons and received important insight by way of getting perspective and reflecting upon myself and the decisions I’ve made leading up to this point. I can respectfully say it’s been a self-gratifying, challenging, and eye-opening experience that’s given me confidence, personal and social awareness, and the ability to not only look within myself but outside of myself and discover who I am as well as the person, father, friend, son, and brother I want to be.

“I have been introduced to what a life outside of inebriation can be and how full of love, joy, and happiness my heart and soul can become so long as I continue the path that’s led me to the destination I seek: one of success, family, friends, and a good, honest clean-living life.”

I have been introduced to what a life outside of inebriation can be and how full of love, joy, and happiness my heart and soul can become so long as I continue the path that’s led me to the destination I seek: one of success, family, friends, and a good, honest clean-living life.

And through the Narconon program and its many trials that tested my willingness, mental and emotional fortitude, and through sacrifice of some of my pride, I was able to achieve a clear and present state of mind that is now stronger than when I arrived. I have succeeded in overcoming my personal demons as well as addressing the issues of substance abuse, broken relationships, and some insecurities and regrets that have haunted and held me back for years. In short, I’ve come a very long way.

Special thanks are in order to my sister, whose idea it was and whose persistence got me here. I can’t thank you enough for always being there for me in my times of crisis and guiding me through them. You’ve been nothing short of an inspiration to me. I’ve always looked up to you, and I can’t wait to share the best version of myself with you.

Another special thanks to my dad who I had been estranged from for over 10 years until recently. I thank you for sticking by my side and showing support and love even when we weren’t in contact. And thank you for reminding me that love for your family is unconditional and that family always comes first.

Another thanks to two of my closest friends for believing in me and not passing judgment. I’m proud to have them as friends.

I would also like to thank the students and staff at Narconon Arrowhead for their insight, knowledge, and experience in helping me to persevere on what was a long and arduous road, but incredibly impactful. I am truly humbled and grateful to have had this experience with such wonderful people.

—J.H., Narconon Arrowhead Graduate