I Decided to Love the New Me

When I first came to Narconon, I had no idea who I was, and I hated that about me. It was an unhealthy way of living, and slowly, but surely, I started realizing this going through this program.
The time I spent here gave me time to focus on myself, figure out who I really was and make positive changes to better myself. For example, I used to be very negative, and then one day I walked into the sauna program with a positive mentality. The hours felt like minutes and the days flew by. I found this so empowering that I shared it with every student starting the sauna program after me. After doing this often, it opened my eyes that I loved being a positive, influential person.
On Objectives, I gained the ability to be in the moment—what is happening now. This helped me to look at myself, who I am today—not who I was before I came to Narconon. I realized that people can change and that I didn’t have to be the same person that I was. I stopped dwelling on all the things I did, the things I didn’t like about myself, and what people thought about me. Something clicked and I decided I am who I am and that was enough for me.
For me, the most significant part of the program was Personal Values. During this time, I had to be honest with myself. This is when honesty became very real to me. My mom always said there was no point in lying, it only made things worse. I saw that first hand doing the exercises on Personal Values. I realized that honesty was extremely important, not only for myself but for the people around me.
“I figured out who I really was and I can honestly say
I decided to love the new me.”
Throughout my time here I didn’t just work on staying clean, I worked on myself. It took a while and a lot of work but in time, I found the real me. Now, you’re probably wondering, “who is the real Lexie?” I can now say that I am an honest, caring, intelligent, artistic, helpful, positive and encouraging person. I figured out who I really was and I can honestly say I decided to love the new me.
Lexie—Narconon Arrowhead Graduate