My heart didn’t ache because of a medical condition, it ached because I no longer loved myself and I couldn’t feel love from others. I was constantly numb, all except for my aching heart. I prayed to feel love, I prayed to feel Joy but all I felt was an empty void.
I’m very happy to be a graduate of the Narconon program as this program gave me the gift of a new life! I got tons of wins on each step of the program which I would like to share. Though I live in the US, as I am originally from Kazakhstan, I started my program in the Narconon of Moscow.
The entire program from start to finish has been awesome. I have learned so much about myself, about life and about others, and it is all knowledge I know I will carry with me and make use of for the rest of my happy life. I will not go back to my old ways of coping: they do not exist anymore, those ways are gone.
When I walked into Narconon Arrowhead 3 months ago, I was sick, I was scared, and I was ashamed. My life was not my life. My body was not my body. My spirit was crushed, and I felt alone. I had one thing, though, and that was a commitment to myself and my family that I would stick it out. I would get clean.
Starting in Withdrawal, I was taught I didn’t need anything to calm my soul; I didn’t need music, TV or a phone. I just need myself. Then came sauna, which, although tough to do, I am confident that it rid all of my body of toxins and drugs.
There have been so many times I’ve said I wouldn’t drink, then an hour later I’d be at the liquor store.
This program has truly changed my life! I have gained back my confidence and self-esteem. I am clean in both my mind and body. I have learned so much about myself and those I surround myself with. I am strong and confident and ready to start the newest chapter of my life. This butterfly is ready to leave her cocoon.
To anyone who reading this that either has a family member or you yourself are struggling with addiction: Narconon Arrowhead saved my daughter’s life.
“Being able to be my very best self and live my life the very best way I possibly can, means the world to me—it is all I could ever ask for and all I ever wanted.“ —Julie, Narconon Graduate
Throughout my time here I didn’t just work on staying clean, I worked on myself. It took a while and a lot of work but in time, I found the real me. Now, you’re probably wondering, “who is the real Lexie”?