My heart didn’t ache because of a medical condition, it ached because I no longer loved myself and I couldn’t feel love from others. I was constantly numb, all except for my aching heart. I prayed to feel love, I prayed to feel Joy but all I felt was an empty void.
I’m very happy to be a graduate of the Narconon program as this program gave me the gift of a new life! I got tons of wins on each step of the program which I would like to share. Though I live in the US, as I am originally from Kazakhstan, I started my program in the Narconon of Moscow.
The entire program from start to finish has been awesome. I have learned so much about myself, about life and about others, and it is all knowledge I know I will carry with me and make use of for the rest of my happy life. I will not go back to my old ways of coping: they do not exist anymore, those ways are gone.
When I walked into Narconon Arrowhead 3 months ago, I was sick, I was scared, and I was ashamed. My life was not my life. My body was not my body. My spirit was crushed, and I felt alone. I had one thing, though, and that was a commitment to myself and my family that I would stick it out. I would get clean.
Starting in Withdrawal, I was taught I didn’t need anything to calm my soul; I didn’t need music, TV or a phone. I just need myself. Then came sauna, which, although tough to do, I am confident that it rid all of my body of toxins and drugs.
There have been so many times I’ve said I wouldn’t drink, then an hour later I’d be at the liquor store.
This program has truly changed my life! I have gained back my confidence and self-esteem. I am clean in both my mind and body. I have learned so much about myself and those I surround myself with. I am strong and confident and ready to start the newest chapter of my life. This butterfly is ready to leave her cocoon.
“Being able to be my very best self and live my life the very best way I possibly can, means the world to me—it is all I could ever ask for and all I ever wanted.“ —Julie, Narconon Graduate
Throughout my time here I didn’t just work on staying clean, I worked on myself. It took a while and a lot of work but in time, I found the real me. Now, you’re probably wondering, “who is the real Lexie”?
When one reaches a breaking point and is searching for help with an addiction, it is vital to find a place where one can grow and heal. I was broken and desperate for a new chance. I attended a 12-step in-patient program looking and begging for help.